可不可以，不勇敢？

我，别无选择...

我，只能踏上这条坎坷的路...

可是...

我，没有勇气继续走下去...

我，连跪着走的力气也渐渐没有了...

很伤心，很难过， 很失望...

我，很累...

我，真的很累...

精疲力尽了...

可不可以，不勇敢？

DON'T wake me up when September ends...

It's time for me to count down to my birthday...

It seems long, yet so near...

My birthday is on 16/10...

It's just 2 weeks away from now on...

Many things could have happened in these 2 weeks' time...

I'm so scared, on the other hand I'm excited...

I'm scared, because I wish I can still have my LUCK...

Frankly speaking, I do have some luck since the end of August...

Not to say that, it's a really really GOOD luck...

At least, it makes me feel like God is still with me, he's still got my back... =p

I don't really believe in luck since year 2009...

Something really really BAD happened to me during year 2009...

And the bad luck seemed like will be never stopped... It makes me HOPELESS... =[

Until, the end of last month... Bad luck seemed to be stopped... Something good is happening to me, unexpectedly...

I should be happy with it...

Yeah I'm happy with it, but September is about to end...

I started to scare that all the luck will be disappeared and gone with September...

I'm really scared... I really wish that God can give me a special birthday gift for my birthday...

Dear God: I'm begging you, PLEASE... Don't grab the luck away from me... I need them SO MUCH!!! *fingers crossed*

The sky of the end of September...

Can my sky change to a brighter and colorful view instead of the picture above?

I sincerely hope that I can get what I want during my birthday...

It's just a little wish from me...

I only wish that I can have THAT...

I believe that God knows what I wanted the most if YOU're at my back...

I really wanted IT so much!!!

Dear God, please let me have some NEW HOPE!!! A BRAND NEW YEAR AHEAD!!!

*FINGERS CROSSED*

However, if You are not going to give me the new hope, please... 

DON'T WAKE ME UP WHEN SEPTEMBER ENDS..........

心愿

我不贪心...

我只希望，我的一个心愿真的能实现...

生日接近了...

老天爷，可以成全我这个心愿吗？

就当做是您对我之前所发生的不幸作为补偿吧...

我知道，我不能怨天尤人...

可是，这仅仅是我唯一的心愿...

希望您能看在我已经经历了这么多的不幸，怜悯我吧~

我的心愿小小的，但已足够让我感到快乐不已...

Belive / Not Believe? To Hope / Not To Hope?

I like to play quizzes...

Recently, I've got almost all good answers for the quizzes I played...

I used to feel happy if I got good answers...

But, after so many things that happened to me in last year, I started to feel that actually those quizzes are unreliable... 

Yet, I still hope that one day I can get my luck back...

People usually say: 人跌倒了谷底，就会反弹。霉运走到透顶，我们就会走向好运。

Should I believe it???

There are somethings considered "not bad" happened to me lately...

However, at my age, I don't dare to DREAM anymore...

I am supposed to live ordinarily...

There are still a lot of commitments that need to be fulfilled with...

I know I'm kinda contradictory...

Maybe this is the real me...

But, I do hope that can someone tells me, believe or not believe?

Should I hope for the fisrt light?

I love this quotation so much : -

To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to RISK NOTHING

 

However, the sad thing is... I don't have the courage either to hope or not to hope...

Our Small Gathering

Yesterday went to D Fortune Western Cuisine & Cafe @ Menjalara to have a small gathering with Crystal, BB and JJ.

It's been a long time that we talk properly with each other...

So happy to see that JJ is doing good... He is quite satisfied bout his job, his life... Finally he doesn't need to lie on the floor after clubbing =p

Personally, I think Crystal runs out of luck... Problems seem like will never be ended on her... However, I wish you can stay strong... As obstacles in life will lead you to a more succeed journey... I believe you can go through all these problems... =) 十扑十扑！

BB is also doing good... As he is earning more side income by doing the sourvey job... =p Hope you can do better and better in the job ya... And stay happy always... =)

I had a Grilled Black Pepper Chicken Chop and a cup of Apple Juice...

Rating : 6/10

I'm looking forward for the next gathering, which is a BBQ session that will be held at Ah Hon's house, 11/9...

Hope to meet all my ex-colleagues in Kay's... =)

HELP!!!

Last week, I saw a link posted by my friend on FACEBOOK, its content is same as the article that I wrote on May 2010 - 明明...

明明不开心，却假装很开心...

明明不想笑，却假装笑，比哭还难看的笑着...
  明明很想哭，却假装很坚强，眼里打滚着的眼泪却出卖了自己...

 明明不喜欢某个人，却假装喜欢，只因为某个人有利用价值...

明明不想做某份工作，却因为钱的问题而假装自己喜欢某份工...

 明知道前面是悬崖，却硬要往前走...

明知道某些习惯只是某人的习惯，却在某人离开后还用某些习惯的方式来想念某人...

明明知道自己应该忘记某人，却因为爱的太深无法忘怀，结果受伤的还是自己...

 生活里有太多的“明明”，让人不顾一切的去做那些“明明”的事情...

但也有太多的“后果”，让人不得不面对现实...

问问自己，有没有做过一些“明明”知道“结果”不好，却还是一意孤行的去做...

也许，这就是人可贵，但也可悲的特性...

可贵的是，我们为了自己的梦想，去做了一些我们该做但不敢做的事...

可悲的事，我们会为了这些事情付出很大的代价...

If anyone sees this link again can you just let me know?

Thank you very much!!!

Although it's only this part, I do wish to know who read my blog and liked it... =p

亲人

不知道从几时开始，我发觉自己把你们当成我的亲人了...

或许是一年前？两年前？

都不重要了，重要的是，我发觉我真的离不开你们了...

这种亲人的感觉，和我的家人是不同的感觉...

不是只字片语能形容的...

只有一起经历过那些风风雨雨，才会有的感觉...

不要感觉到害怕...

不要感觉到孤单...

因为我们不会让你有这样的感觉...

我们会陪着你，一直到最后...

就算你觉得我们烦，厚脸皮，唠叨，我们还是会赖在那边陪你...

你不会寂寞，因为有我们...

你不会孤单，因为有我们...

你不用害怕，因为有我们...

你不必紧张，因为有我们...

寂寞的话，我们陪你...

孤单的话，我们找你...

害怕的话，我们帮你...

紧张的话，我们“撑”你...

我相信，几年以后，我们一定会为我们一起经历过的，一起做过的，包括这个事情，感到高兴的...

想象一下，我们一起去一个地方旅行，然后喝酒聊天，你们可以看见我们以后的笑容吗？

你们可以听到我们将来的笑声吗？？？

我看到了，我想象到了，我感受到了，我听到了...

我看到了我们彼此脸上开心的笑容...

我想象到我们如何的开怀大笑...

我感受到我们以后激动地心情...

我听到我们开朗的笑声...

我们真的很开心... =)

请记着，我们不会因此而疏远...

请记着，我们不会因此而失联...

相反的，我们会因此而常见面...

我们会因此而常联络...

我们会因此而常聚会...

这一切的一切，不是即将结束，而是即将开始...

我们的旅程，才刚刚开始...

我们一定会在将来的日子创造更多属于我们的回忆..

属于我们的青春故事...

我们的故事不需要很精彩，不需要很奢华...

我只需要，你们在里面...

因为如果我的故事少了你们，就像拼图少了一个角，不再完美...

一生中，遇到的人数不胜数...

有些人注定是过客，有些人却注定是要在我们的人生故事里写下辉煌的一页...

有多少人，可以从互不相识变成朋友？

从朋友升华为好朋友？

从好朋友升华为姐妹？

最后，变成了亲人...

我很庆幸，我都遇过以上的人...

让我更懂得珍惜你们...

我们的故事还没结束，真正精彩的内容才刚开始等着我们去创造呢！

我们一起走下去好吗？

我的亲人...