Thursday, 18 March 2010

下雪的世界

外面的世界到底是怎样的?

在我的世界里,已经没有以前纯朴的快乐... 为什么现在要找到快乐是那么难的事???

曾经我引以为傲的自己,竟然败给了自己...

为什么人的快乐要随着年龄的成长而减少???然而烦恼却是像追随着年龄的脚步,一直一直的跟随着我???

好想逃啊~~~!!!!!!!

逃离这个现实的世界!!!

为什么?为什么?为什么???

我只想找回以前的我,虽不是说我是最单纯善良的... 但至少不像现在的我一样... 连我自己都不喜欢现在的自己!!!戴着面具的自己!!!啊~~~!!!!!!


 为什么?天气明明是那么的热,而我却觉得我很冷?


我的世界...一直都是冬天,一直都在下着雪...

Sunday, 14 March 2010

庆幸

我想,我是幸福的...

真的是很庆幸,庆幸我能认识到你们,
庆幸有你们的陪伴和包容,
容忍我这个臭脾气的人...


 我会学着尽量控制自己的情绪,脾气,
不想因为自己的臭脾气和刺猬让你们受到伤害...

很珍惜这些日子以来我们培养的友谊...

这些都是很难能可贵的日子...
在我们即将告别我们的学生时代,
跨向我们另一段人生时,
我想问你们:

“朋友,我们一起走下去,好么?”






Saturday, 13 March 2010

习惯,思念,感伤...

习惯是一种瘾,思念是一种痛,
感伤是终身不愈的一道伤口...

当我们习惯了某一些人或事,就会上瘾和贪婪的眷恋那件事情或人...
直到有一天,这些人,事,物离你而去时,就会变成对他们的一种思念..
当我们发现,这些人,事,物是永远回不到过去时,就会形成感伤...
感伤,是一辈子都无法痊愈的...

人类是感情丰富又自相矛盾的动物...
其实,我们不是败给了我们的习惯,而是败给了自己...

每一个人,事,物,都像一颗洋葱...
当你熟悉了它们,就会想要了解它们...
了解的过程,就像剥开一层一层的洋葱皮,
它总会有让你流泪的时候...
到了你忍无可忍的时候,
你就会选择把洋葱丢掉...
所以,是不是不了解比了解来得好呢?
起码,不了解时,
大家都回报着怕被伤害和不伤害别人的心态...
一旦认识了,了解了,每一个人都原形毕露...

受的了的,就会坦然接受...
受不了的,就会选择离开,逃避,放弃,
而另一个人,就只留下一个落寞的背影...


 把习惯抛下,也许就能找回自己...
不要依赖习惯...
它就像是一种毒品...
明知道习惯了之后是没有好处的,
可是偏偏就是戒不了...
而当你想开始戒掉它的时候,
才发现,你已经中毒太深,
陷下去而不可自拔...

不要为了别人而活,要为了自己而活...
套句老土的话:
“这个世界上没有谁会因为失去了一些人就活不下去,
地球还是一样地转,
不会因为你的伤心难过而把时间静止,
让你慢慢疗伤...”

现实是残酷的...
时代不停在进步,总有一天你将会因为“原地踏步”而被社会抛弃...
因为你已经脱节了...

所以,放下吧...

你有多久没好好休息了?
趁着休息时间,
抬头仰望天空,
才发现,
原来天空蓝的如此美丽...

你不是被抛弃的...
你正在美丽的蓝色天空怀抱里...
你不是孤单的一个人...


Tuesday, 2 March 2010

我该得到




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Back To Normal

Everything is back to normal now... And I've started working again... *sigh*

Although I've said that I need to turn on my STUDY MODE, I haven't touched my Zubino's assignment yet... How LAZY I am... T_____T

Actually I'm not lazy to do it, but I just couldn't find my mood to do it... I'm struggling my assignment and revision now... It's a little too late for me to start revision now actually, because I definitely have not enough time to study all~~!!! *sigh* again...

No one can help me, except ME - MYSELF... My MIND is the only solution to solve this problem... Once I've set up my mind, I can get myself fully prepared to fight in the WAR...

But now... Haih... I just don't have the mood...

Which way can lead me to my career???

Tonight is going to be another sleepless night for me... I'm having 8am class later... T_____T

Monday, 1 March 2010

抽烟的女人


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Goodbye CNY

TIME FLIES~~~

CNY was just OVER yesterday... Everything has to back to normal, holiday mode has to be turned off, STUDY MODE has to be turned ON NOW~

However, I do feel happy during this year CNY, although I felt that it's a too short holiday... XP

1st day of CNY

Although it was fall on Valentine's Day, I didn't hang out with boyfriend simply because I don't have one now XP But I do had a date with my relatives at my uncle's house... It was just a small reunion with them, nothing special on 1st day... I prefer 2nd day, LOL...

2nd/3rd/4th day of CNY

Woke up early in the morning around 5sth to go back my mom's hometown - Perak.
7sth in the morning @ Perak

We reached home around 8sth, waited for my uncles and aunts to wake up and they made us breakfast, yummy~ Hehez...

Some relatives came to our house in the afternoon, "Adults" were chatting with each other on their own, "Kids" like ME (muahahhaha XD) were watching drama by using my laptop with smaller "Kids" - my cousins... (I'm the eldest =.=")

my uncle was playing with my cousins

dinner

 
this is my FAVOURITE - fried chicken with salty eggs, it's YUMMY~ =D

3rd day was still the same, actually nothing can be done there, we were just eating, chatting and sleeping, LOL...

4th day - at first we planned to go Cameron Highlands with my aunt's family. However, my uncle felt very tired, he can't drive to Cameron and his wife cant drive too, so we have to cancel our Cameron trip this year, sob sob... Before we go back KL we went to a temple at Kampar.



Many students will go to this temple to pray for good results, it's a God of Study. I did prayed. Hope the God bless me pass my internal and external papers in order for me to graduate successfully...

6th day of CNY
Went to CW and CL's houses to "Bai Nian", hehez... We stayed in CW house within 15mins then we went to CL hse...

CL's mom prepared many food for us, so we bought "Yu Shang" to her house.

Yu Shang

huat ah~ huat ah~

After finished eating we started Alicia's favourite activity - GAMBLING. Alicia won all of my $$ that day, sob sob... T_____T

 

  
see... she's couting all the $$ she won

  
with CL's mother =D
We stopped gambling around 5sth in the evening as we need to go to Jalan Ipoh for dinner at her mom's friend open house. All of us felt shy because we don't know the host, we only know CL's family. But the host and his wife was really really nice and friendly... =)

We left his house around 8.30pm to go back PH's house and continue our activity, LOL... We played till 5sth in the morning the next day, muahahahaha... But some of them already left PH's house at 11.30pm...

8th day of CNY

Today is the BIG DAY for Hokkian, which is "Bai Ti Gong".

I went to play badminton with MK and Chan SY early in the morning. Then MK said she wanted to come my house tonight, I asked her to contact others to come my house for gambling. 

My sis's bf is coming also. He was the 1st who came, he came around 7sth in the evening. Then we started to play BlackJack, 2 of them won my $$~ sob sob...

After that, MK, HW, JY and some of my tkd friends reached my house around 8.45pm. Without wasting anytime, we started gambling, LOL... I was very lucky that night, I won their $$. At least the amount of $$ that I've won can cover my lost to Alicia, LOL...
They left my house around 11.30pm. Then I started to help my mom prepared to "Bai Ti Gong".


 
 

  
Sky Lantern

 
Hope the God receives our wishes...

 
Fireworks time~ =D

 
fireworks is nice but it scares my dog...

13th day of CNY

We went to PH house again because we haven't got her mom's ang pao, LOL... Last time we went there her mom wasn't around... And as usual, we started to play "3 ka" mahjong, some of them playing "Nami".

We went to eat steamboat around 8.30pm... After that we went to Geno's house. It was the 1st time I go to his house. His mom is friendly and nice... =) 

14th day of CNY

Went to Sg Wang with mom and sis... Then slept for 2hours after came back from shopping, muahahahha XD

PH texted me at 10pm, asked me to go her house play mahjong because she and her sis very bored at home, since I'm bored also I said YES. Hehez...

We played till 2am, PH and PC fetched me home. These few days my mind is full of these words - “中”,“发”,“东”,“南”,“西”,“北”

I hope I didn't get addicted to mahjong, because after CNY I have a WAR... Which is my assignment, presentation, internal exam, and ACCA exam. AARRRRGGGGHHHHH~!!! I can feel the stress now... T_____T

15th day of CNY

Today is the last day of CNY... I feel sad because my holiday is GONEEEE~ And I have to face the fact that I have to turn on my study mood now... T____T

My last wish for CNY - Pass all the exam, I'm not greedy. I hope I can pass only, just give me 50%... =p And to all my friends, pass all the papers!!! We can do it!!! =D

- That's all for my CNY holiday -