此时，此刻

失望... 沮丧的失望...

热闹并不能让我被解放，酒精也不能让我健忘...

喝吧... 沉默的喝吧...

朋友别怪我要讲又没讲，心里太乱会像哑巴...

跟朋友装沉默，跟陌生人讲心里话。

对于在乎我的，只是不想让TA们担心。

有时候，没有消息，就是一种好消息...

其实很想说，我很好...

可是“我很好”这句话，往往会在最在乎的人面前，失去了原有的可信度...

所以我选择，沉默...

我们为何总是马不停蹄的错过最重要的人事物，轻而易举的辜负真正在乎我们的人，到后来，我们竟在不知不觉中形同陌路...

不要错过，不要遗憾...

到了我们这个年纪，已经没有多余的时间去错过，辜负，和遗憾...

请充实的度过每一天...

我们永远无法预料，下一秒会发生什么事...

学会珍惜，学会宽容，学会放手...

如果一个人，一辈子都在遗憾，伤心和难过，那么，TA还剩下多少时间来快乐？

快乐，看似简单，可是人们偏爱把它复杂化...

也许人类就是这样，很复杂... =S

或许应该说，现实的残酷，令人们不得不复杂化的想事情，做事情...

Reunion Dinner with Sisters

Stephy just came back from UK, had dinner with my dearest sisters yesterday...

Glad to know that all of them are doing good currently...

Talked about lots of things with them yesterday...

And then, we've discovered that actually many things that happened in year 2009 that affected us very very much...

But 4 of us didn't tell each other...

It's simply because, we wish each other to live happily...

We don't wish to bother each other about all those sh*ts...

Funny huh?

It's just because: We are really treasure each other, until we don't wish to bother each other... However, we've forgotten that if anyone of us tells the rest of us her problems, we'll be the first person who stands next to her and give her a big hug to comfort her... Although we can't help too much, but our shoulders are always there for her...

After we shared all our problems, we started to scold each other... LOL...

After the dinner with my sisters yesterday, I really feel that we've grown up...

Now, we are matured enough to settle our own problems...

And we are capable to handle the obstacles in life...

We're no longer the naive girls that we used to be in secondary school...

WE ARE ADULTS NOW!!! XD

Thanks my dear sisters who forced me to tell out everything... I felt better...

We should organize more dinners in the future, we don't need to go very very expensive and high class restaurants...

As long as, we have a comfortable place to sit down together and tell each other about our recent life...

I LOVE YOU ALL MY SISTERS!!! ♥

Dear Ji Muis, I will tell everything after Pik Hun's wedding...

Don't worry about me now... I'm fine... I'm still alive... I will take care of myself...

I know you all care about me as well, but at the moment, let our pretty bride has a memorable wedding first...

I will tell everything after her wedding, I promised... =)

AND A VERY IMPORTANT THING: -

Today is Geno's BIG DAY...


Dear Geno: I wish you happy birthday... Stay happy with Jesmin... You two look sweet... ^^

My New Toy ♥

Birthday is getting nearer and nearer...

I've decided to buy myself a present to make myself feel happier after all these sh*ts that happened to me...

And the present that I've bought is... FUJI INSTAX MINI 7S!!!

I just can't help falling in love with this camera!!!

LOL... XD

At last, I found something brightens up my day after all the sh*ts... ^^v

Credits to my sis... =p

My sis - Mey

不是末日...

想通了...

真的想通了...

告诉自己，这不是末日...

能够解决的问题，就不是问题..

比起有些人，这些事只是件小事...

告诉自己，忘记过去...

开始新的生活...

日子照过，和以前一样的出去嘻哈玩乐...

我说过，我要我的人生是精彩的...

这些事情，将来的我会感到骄傲的...

我竟然，有本事解决这件事...

我是应该感到骄傲的...

至少，我不再是温室里的小花...

我是可以自力更生的...

我是有能力做到的！

我为此，而感到骄傲！

记得，要忘记...

忘记过去，忘记伤痛，忘记所有的从前...

从今天开始，只有“以后”，没有“从前”

只要我还活着，我要用力大口大口的呼吸...

不要浪费光阴，把握现在，创造美好的未来！

加油吧！我可以的！！！

想通了，接受了，也释怀了... =)

如果，有一天...

如果，有一天...

當你發覺，你在一個晚上的時間，失去了所有，你會怎樣？

當你發覺，曾經對你關懷備至的人，現在已經換了一張猥褻的狠樣，你會怎樣？

當你發覺，命運似乎一直在跟你開玩笑，作弄你，你會怎樣？

當你發覺，肩膀上的負擔越來越多，越來越重，可是那個重量不是你負荷得了的，你會怎樣？

當你發覺，人心是那麼的脆弱，脆弱得一碰就會碎，你會怎樣？

當你發覺，你的心，控制了你所有的喜，怒，哀，樂，還有思想，你會怎樣？

當你發覺，你的心，早已在幾百年前石沉大海，現在在你左胸口的心，只是一顆電子心，負責在那裡每一天的跳動，只爲了證明你自己還是個活的人，可是卻沒有了所有的情緒，你會怎樣？

當你發覺，你身邊的人需要你的幫助，可是你卻愛莫能助，你會怎樣？

當你發覺，小時候的那顆一直庇佑著你，為你遮風擋雨的大樹，如今變成了一顆一碰所有樹葉花蕊都會掉光的老樹，再也不能為你遮風擋雨，反而要你悉心的照料，你會怎樣？

你會想逃嗎？

你會想哭嗎？

你會恨嗎？

逃，是因為不想見到大家傷心難過的臉...

哭，是因為自己的無能為力...

恨，是因為自己的無能！！！

我逃過，我哭過，我也恨過...

可是，問題還是存在的...

好想有個時光機，回到過去...

我不會像以前那麼懦弱...

絕對不會因為害怕而不去阻止...

如果當初，我阻止了，這一切的一切，是不是又可以回到原點？

回到風平浪靜的時候，回到快快樂樂的時候...

可是，我真的知道...真的回不去了...真的找不回了...真的是絕望了...

關於現況，我只想說...

如果，有一天，我變了...

變得沉默寡言，變得鬱鬱寡歡，變得不再微笑，請原諒我...

我累了...我真的累了...

我沒有力氣去微笑，我沒有力氣去搞笑，我真的，沒有力氣了...

請原諒我的自私，我，真的累了...

不過，真的只是，如果，有一天...

我似乎走到了盡頭
卻看不到終點
遠處，是否還有走下去的起點？

如果有一天，上帝讓我選擇財富還是失憶？

我會選擇，失憶...

可不可以，不勇敢？

我，别无选择...

我，只能踏上这条坎坷的路...

可是...

我，没有勇气继续走下去...

我，连跪着走的力气也渐渐没有了...

很伤心，很难过， 很失望...

我，很累...

我，真的很累...

精疲力尽了...

可不可以，不勇敢？

DON'T wake me up when September ends...

It's time for me to count down to my birthday...

It seems long, yet so near...

My birthday is on 16/10...

It's just 2 weeks away from now on...

Many things could have happened in these 2 weeks' time...

I'm so scared, on the other hand I'm excited...

I'm scared, because I wish I can still have my LUCK...

Frankly speaking, I do have some luck since the end of August...

Not to say that, it's a really really GOOD luck...

At least, it makes me feel like God is still with me, he's still got my back... =p

I don't really believe in luck since year 2009...

Something really really BAD happened to me during year 2009...

And the bad luck seemed like will be never stopped... It makes me HOPELESS... =[

Until, the end of last month... Bad luck seemed to be stopped... Something good is happening to me, unexpectedly...

I should be happy with it...

Yeah I'm happy with it, but September is about to end...

I started to scare that all the luck will be disappeared and gone with September...

I'm really scared... I really wish that God can give me a special birthday gift for my birthday...

Dear God: I'm begging you, PLEASE... Don't grab the luck away from me... I need them SO MUCH!!! *fingers crossed*

The sky of the end of September...

Can my sky change to a brighter and colorful view instead of the picture above?

I sincerely hope that I can get what I want during my birthday...

It's just a little wish from me...

I only wish that I can have THAT...

I believe that God knows what I wanted the most if YOU're at my back...

I really wanted IT so much!!!

Dear God, please let me have some NEW HOPE!!! A BRAND NEW YEAR AHEAD!!!

*FINGERS CROSSED*

However, if You are not going to give me the new hope, please... 

DON'T WAKE ME UP WHEN SEPTEMBER ENDS..........